safe space

3/24-- am i selfish?

3/29-- this week felt like maybe three days if i'm being generous. i don't mind the time passing quickly. the closer it gets to next year, the closer i get to freedom. i'm in a shit mood. i distracted myself today by making a bunch of patches. i'm pretty happy with how they turned out. most of them were gifts for my siblings. we have this big holiday coming up that I'm dreading.

i just looked at the date of that first entry and it's been a month since i accepted the fact that i was trans. i've made some progress, not just in passing and coming out and all, but in how i feel and think about myself. the dysphoria is still crippling, but it's manageable. the stress of being trans in the US right now is a lot.

i like how in this space, i don't have to hide who i am, and i don't have to feel guilty about it. it's nice being nothing but a personality.

there's an eclipse today. partial solar eclipse. i don't think it'll appear in my area though.

sorry, this was a shit entry.